1... 2... 3...BPD and counting

[LovelyBones88]

I will definitely will keep searching for that kind of support but I tell yah that the rope is getting shorter and shorter... I have done DBT 3 times but completed 1 of the 3... It got me this far... And so I'm in the haunt for a different therapy that would help me get through further.... Currently doing ACT and it's explaining more of why I act how I act... I'm keen to do schema but will do it after ACT...

[Jynx]

@LovelyBones88 oh nice, I'm glad that it has been working for you! And same for ACT, which I've heard really good things about. It sounds like you're very much on the right track, and maybe there's a sense of not making as much progress as you expected? Which can definitely suck! But doesn't mean the progress you have made is not worth the efforts!

[LovelyBones88]

Thanks @Jynx! I do try and acknowledge the change Ive been making and I try not to be hard on myself if things aren't going as fast I'd hope... I'm trying to fix my inner critic as well, still long way to go on that part...

[tyme]

Hey @LovelyBones88 ,

Lovely to see you here.

I just wanted to let you know that I have first-hand experience of the emotional pain of borderlines. 

I can relate to your struggles with EDs and hospitals as someone diagnosed with BPD.

It is great you are able to connect with the community here. Hopefully it will support you as you journey through.

We are here for you.

[LovelyBones88]

Thanks @tyme @Jynx @Former-Member @rav3n @Ru-bee for all your inputs... Truly am grateful... 

I guess I am hoping that one day it'll be sunshine and butterflies and that soon the fog will lift... I will try and strive for continuing to seek help when I need to just so I can get on with life with little bumps here and there....

I know life is never perfect not there's any 'normality' in it but I just wish that it gives me some slack and atleast enjoy whatever this life brings... 🙂

[LovelyBones88]

TW Suicide and self harm thoughts and urges

Tonight I'm not feeling great... I have the nagging voice in my head thats making me want to SH with intentions to end it now... I need some advice as to how to get through even just for a minute coz I'm lost and feeling defeated...

[tacocat]

Hi @LovelyBones88 

Sorry to hear you're having such a rough time tonight. Sometimes it's the isolation that can lead the nagging voicing to become louder. Recognising that and reaching out for support shows both strength and self-care. You might not feel great right now, but you are doing the right things to stay safe.

I'm sure you're aware of some of the crisis line numbers, but I'd like to share them again. Connecting with a person over the phone and having a chat might really help quiet the dark thoughts and calm you down.

Lifeline: 13 11 14 or Crisis Chat

Suicide call back service: 1300 659 467 or online counselling

Samaritans: 135 247

If in immediate danger: 000

Stay strong and be safe. 

[LovelyBones88]

Tonight, I'm stuck in a deeper rut than last... I honestly can't continue doing this to myself, it's torture... It's seems plain and clear that ending it all together is the best option for me, I don't see any other way...

I need something to work with, I feel so isolated and lonely in this world...

What would anyone suggest as to what to do...

[Snowflake]

I'm glad you are reaching out when you are feeling in such a stuck space. I imagine this may feel quite exhausting and difficult.

Often sharing these feelings can help us feel less isolated.
Please reach out to talk with the crisis numbers if you need to
Lifeline 13 11 14 or Crisis Chat
Suicide Call back service 1300 659 467
or in immediate danger 000

[Ru-bee]

Hi @LovelyBones88 I'm hearing that last night was a really hard one for you, I wanted to check in and see how you're feeling this morning? I've also sent you through an email if you could keep an eye out for that in your inbox.

We're here for you