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Had my last psychologist app yesterday for a while. She's supposed to be off until 9 Jan but has made an extra app on 29 Jan to see me - she thinks 3 weeks is far too long to wait. She actually drove me to the grade 6 leaver's dinner today because it was held close to where I used to live and I didn't think I could go because I wouldn't cope. I really wanted to say goodbye to the kids because I had taught nearly all of them - some for two years in a row. Still can't believe she took me.
Seeing my Gp tomorrow and Friday. Then she's on holidays for 3 weeks also. I do have contact numbers for both of them if I really need them in that time - amazing support!
Even though they are that supportive, it doesn't stop my head spinning. I'm finding it very difficult to understand why I am still alive and how I have coped with 'normal' life for so long. I think it's because I have somehow convinced myself that it didn't happen - even though I have always known. It's not until I have been able to find someone I trust enough to start to open up and relive everything that the extent of the violence has become apparent. Sometimes you just think it is 'life'.
