My life sucks

[Blackcloud]

And I have no hope that it’ll get better, despite being told by everyone that spoken to that it would. But I know for a fact that it won’t, not even in decades time.

[Dreamy]

@Blackcloud oh sweet. I know things are far from easy right now. I'm sorry that you are feeling this way but please know that you are not alone. We are here for you ❤️ 

[Blackcloud]

@Dreamy It’s a lot harder when I don’t have any friends (especially real friends) to rely on. Like why do I always have to handle and do everything by myself without having any supports but only myself 😞😒 everyone hates me

[Dreamy]

@Blackcloud yes I get that. I'm the same sweet, I don't have any friends in real life. But I can offer you my friendship here and I certainly don't hate you. Sending you hugs ❤️ 

[Blackcloud]

@Dreamy thank you, we are online friends after all. 😊❤️🫂

[Dreamy]

@Blackcloud yes we are indeed ❤️. 

What are your plans for the day? 

[Blackcloud]

@Dreamy well I just had a shower now waiting for my hair to be completely dry. Idk if I plan on going out for a walk again after that but we’ll see. I do have other plans (like sessions/appintments) coming up in the next few days though but idk how I feel about those 

What about you my friend? 🙂

[Dreamy]

@Blackcloud well done on having a shower, my hair takes forever to dry. See how you feel after, just take it baby steps at a time. Just take it day by day sweet, if you need to move appointments around cos you aren't feeling up to it then that's ok. 

I don't have anything planned. My head hurts after having seizures last night and my body is sore, I really don't want to face the day. 

[Blackcloud]

@Dreamy tomorrow is gonna be a one on one feedback support session with my lecturer as I’ve let her know on how much I’m struggling with the current portfolio assessment. Then the day after is my phone appointment with my OT & 10-min review appt with dentist - that’s pretty much what’s gonna happen within the next 2 days 😅

I’m so sorry to hear about the seizures, I can’t imagine what it’s like to be having to deal with that sort of thing on a day to day basis😞 let alone having no one to help. Is there anything that you plan on doing in order to take care of and look after yourself throughout it all? 

[Dreamy]

@Blackcloud good on you for letting your lecturer know that you are struggling with the current assessment, hoping they can help you out so you can get it done. Hopefully the other 2 appointments are quick and easy.

It's tough and scary to go through alone. It's just a matter of taking things slow and trying to rest. Unfortunately being stuck in one's headspace with intrusive thoughts makes resting impossible.