I'm sorry everyone, it appears my absence since Friday has caused some of you concern. Friday was not a good day, in a lot of respects. I dont want you to be unnessessarily concerned, so this is a quick post to let you all know that I'm safe. Not okay, but safe. So please do not worry. I will likely be a bit quiet though. I am so sorry I am not around to support any of you right now ... that makes me very sad and causes a sense of helplessness. 😔💞
Things had been building for hubby with the war crimes report and his Dads death. On top of all his usual issues. The live streamed funeral service for his Dad on Friday evening was a bit of a catalyst I think. He insisted I have a drink with him during the service, and brought me a scotch. I could hardly refuse given it was in rememberance of his Dad. I havent been drinking at all since several days prior to my surgery. It was taken on an empty stomach, and in an emotional and physical low. It affected me almost immediately, making me dizzy and spun out. And of course hubby doesnt know how to stop at one. Everything escalated. I cannot go into details, but I hurt myself quite badly and have been in additional pain since. Slowly resolving, and I am more comfortable now. But it unfortunately means I have additional difficulty in doing some of my arm and shoulder exercises I need to do post surgery. Which is a bit of a setback for my post surgery physical recovery. Life continues to be difficult for me, and I'm feeling a little sorry for myself ... again.
I tried to get an appointment with my GP on Friday, but no appointments are available before 11th December. Too late for my needs. I will phone at opening time tomorrow to see if I can get one of his emergency appointments which they dont release until the day. I really need to see him.
I may miss tagging some of you, but I wanted to try to tag at least those of you who have been so kind and supportive of me the past few days, including during my little meltdown on Friday evening. My apologies if I have missed you, it was not intentional.
Thank you so much everyone ... your kind understanding and non-judgemental support is invaluable to me, and to a great many others here.
@Anastasia @Eve7 @Former-Member @greenpea @WIP @Owlunar @Lee82 @Bow @outlander @Sans911 @Radius @Exoplanet @Snowie @Former-Member and also @NatureLover for enquiring after my wellbeing on your thread this morning.
Emelia 😔💜🙏💞🌸
