Hello everyone, I am new to this forum so please be gentle with me.
I've had a rough time these past few years for various reasons: miscarriage, family problems, working too much, doing too much, debt and relationship issues. It's been hard.
I found myself morphing into this person who I no longer recognised, no longer liked. I've been snappy, agitated, angry, frustrated. Why? Because I always try my hardest to make others around me happy, often putting myself last and still not getting any respect or appreciation.
The biggest blow came when my husband found someone else out of the blue and I found out. He found someone fun and easy going, someone that made him feel good. It hurt because I spent years running myself into the ground to be a good wife, a good mother and still wasn't good enough.
It's at this point my behaviour changed again. I noted I was getting obsessed and repeating actions over and over... hours would pass and I had not accomplished anything. I knew it was crazy, I knew it wasn't healthy but somehow couldn't help myself.
I would check his Facebook profile, her Facebook Profile, his Instgram... for changes, for something. Once I had done, I would start the cycle again.
We moved past everything and decided to give things another go but still I have these obsessive compulsions to check things. It's not nesesseraily checking him, it can be anything. For example, if I am waiting for an email, I will repeatidly keep checking.
I actually feel like I have a problem, that I am going crazy. Can anyone help!?
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