It’s been too long I think @tyme. I’m feeling really depressed and home sick.
I’ve been having a lot of trouble with my calf muscles and back. Neither are getting but just worse every time I walk. Tuesday and Wednesday I did a massive amount of exercise because my Pdoc said I needed to exercise more. The nurses are concerned because I broke down through extreme exhaustion. The nurse yesterday told me I wasn’t allowed to go out for walk in the afternoon. It’s obviously been written in my notes for handover because this mornings nurse new.
We had no facilitators today so there were no groups. That meant an entire day of nothing. The thought of that was getting me really down. It left me feeling very alone. I went to the nurses station and said I was going for a walk. A really nice nurse didn’t want to let me go. She agreed on the walk if I promised to Uber back. I was not to walk up that hill. I agreed.
I walked down to the beach and cried in pain. The pain is making me feel so much worse. I walked along the water for a bit and then went and sat down again to rest my legs. I then walked to Coles. The pain was so intense that I could barely walk. Walking around the supermarket I started to loose all feeling in my feet. They went numb. You know that feeling where it doesn’t really function and so much larger than it is?
I managed to make it safely and called an Uber.
I get back here and just cried again. The nurse sent me to rest. I have spent all afternoon asleep.
