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I know it feels that way at the moment @Zoe7, but I have faith that you will heal from this. Part of it is finding that place inside yourself where you decide that your sense of peace and joy in the things that matter most to you don’t belong to someone else, and they have no right to come and take it from you ...... and then you start to climb back up. It can take a time of rest before you recover the strength and belief that you can do that, but it is a healing force that lives within you, so give it time and space, as you are doing ..... and rest as best you are able to.
There are peiple in Le in my life who kept knocking me down anytime I went near them, and waiting meg patiently at times to find opportunities to make my life difficult in my most difficult struggle times. It was when I decided that, do what they may, they were not going to decide my happiness for me that I began to find tiny moments of joy in my life and build rock-stacks with them. Even if they came along and knocked my rock-stacks down again, the rocks were still there and I got better and better at stacking them up again.
There is a lot of artwork in my current rockstack, in fact I am sitting in rock-stack-quarry right now with my art studies ..... so they just better watch out ❣️ I don’t throw my rocks, but I do build dry-stone walls with them, joy walls that they have to climb over to get to me .....
Start building when you can Hon. A big joy-rock came to you yesterday with the knowledge that you will remain at this school for the rest of the year 🎉💐💕.
Until then just rest, and know that your forum friends love and miss you .....
I too need a rock stack quarry right now @Faith-and-Hope - one where I can block out the rest of the world and not let anyone in. I can't rest today as I had planned - have parent things happening and that will take up most of my afternoon - so not what I needed today.
I know this all needs time and has significantly affected more than me but I do not have the energy to support anyone presently. It feels like I am letting people down although I also know that everyone understands where I am currently sitting and do not expect me to be able to support anyone.
This is incredibly hard and it is not the first time this has happened ...very much questioning why me. I don't deserve to be feeling like this but building up those rock stacks seems impossible right now ...one small stone at a time but those stones feel like they have been blown up into a million pieces.
I will try to check in with you this afternoon or tonight but I cannot make any promises. Of course you know I will be thinking of you Hon - keep doing your art and building those rock stacks yourself and I will find my way back to you when I can 
Hey there @Zoe7 , I am going to send you an email soon
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