Our stories
@Wanderer Another welcome to the forum from me, and a sorry that I have not been in a position to repond earlier too - we do what we can when we can, that's how it has to be.
I have read along with most of your story and truly feel for you in all that you have had to, and still have to, deal with. It does sound like you are making wise decisions, I'd expect thta selling the farm is a better outcome both financially and emotionally for you than seeing it fall into disrepair.
The betrayals by those whom you trusted to have your best interests at heart really resonate with me, along with all that you've endured, these things impact so much more widely and deeply, perhaps because they are unexpected.
After years of the betrayals in my own situations, I still cannot understand the reasons behind all that happened, and continues to happen even though I am not around. I don't know how people can do such things to others, let alone those who they are supposed to care about, and who care about them. It does my head in.
I truly hope your medical tests reveal a result that means better options for your future, and that you find a way through the maze of pain and tribulation. 
Just wanted to catch up and say thanks for the kind words. Wild Flower is a very pretty name. I know I chose my forum name with great care before signing up. 
I grew up on a farm, 16 years of it. Some things I enjoyed, some not so much as is the case with children and farm life.
I do wonder if managing carbohydrate meal levels will help with those sugar crashes, they are not fun at all.
Writing is one of my activities too. Really wanting to get more done with some half finished works.
I hope your day has some pleasant moments for you.
There is so much that you are going through @Wanderer, and it makes it quite difficult to talk when you have to 'talk around' the details of a situation, but it's also necessary for privacy, as we all know.
I'm not sure there is anything I can offer except understanding of the difficulty of your situation, and the support of being present with you, without the physicality of presence - virtual existence is a peculiar and wondrous thing.
(I hope it's okay to ask/ suggest) Would it be possible, if it has not already been done, to organise for some type of counselling for the two of you?
From some of what you've said I expect your wife has issues of her own that mean she finds much of life difficult to handle without more support than you might be able to provide right now given your own circumstances.
I know nothing really helps with the hurt that you're feeling right now.
Thinking of you, wishing you better days and nights.
